Interrupted feeling....

Just that today i tot tat i like her....i discover tat i was wrong...all the feling that i feel b4 is i just take her as friend...and i can feel it as a friend...and today...i find another her...and i like the way she be, she act, she laugh, she smile, she look...and she think....she is special and different than other....oh god...pls dun let me hav this kind of feeling again...let me stop this feeling on her...but i cant...cuz other guy like her although she din have boyfriend...but the other guy may take gd care of her than me...so...i guess i will stop at where i am...
I start my smoking habit again bcuz of her and i will stop my habit again because of other her...
Btw...i saw Theing just now...she go gurney by herself and plan to watch movie by herself...u noe wat...i kinda pity for her...
Today also is not a happy day...i did something really really bad...i almost break up with my friend's gal friend for my friend...am i cruel...idiot and suckers.....i think yes...